|
EPHIE
Below are the 25 most recent journal entries.
[ << Previous 25 ]
|
|
|
|
 |
|
 |
| |
2012.03.14 03.09
Yes world. I STILL have a livejournal. And I'm STILL posting.
I've recently rediscovered this little treasure. I'm quite glad I still have it. Reading back to posts from when I was 13, 14, 15 and 16 years old is funny. It's sweet and interesting...there are some things that I have lost, which I miss. There are other things that I've lost, and am glad I learned my way out of them. I think something I've improved upon is how I handle social drama. Working on friendships outside of the social network. Seeing people's pain, trying not to judge them too harshly. Not taking everything so personally.
However something I've lost is a certain unawareness. A sense of abandon with my feelings. I'm much more aware of my emotions now...trying to alter the negative ones. At least when writing things down.
Though I guess I'm venting here. This is my place for venting. No one uses livejournal anymore so it feels a bit like a safe haven.
No one tells you when your dreams come true there will still be demons. Or if they do, one tends to ignore them.
Life can get hard. But it's how you handle the hard times that shows the world your true colors. The unexpected little things can be much harder to handle than the expected big things. Words can be very painful, and it can be even more painful when you aren't handling them well. Disappointing yourself can be very painful. When you love something and someone tells you you don't...that can be painful. How do you prove you do?
How do you prove that you're telling the truth. When someone calls you a liar, how do you take their words, how do you put out that fire?
I'm learning the hard way to stop reading reviews. I'm learning the hard way to become unattached to other people's opinions.
What do I think will make for the best show?
Relaxation. Truth. Specificity and Energy. Technique.
I am working with ALL of these things. What a jerk that man is for tearing apart my performance...I am a HARDWORKING actress. I am a young actress. And I SWEAR I am telling the truth on that stage.
Okay. I feel strongly about that. So I know that it is true. So I can let his words go. And I can say that if I keep working on the truth that karma is going to come back to me.
I love this show. I love this role. I love these people. There is so much love surrounding my life right now and if I can continue to focus on that I will live in love. I am love.
We are all love.
|
|
 |
|
 |
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
| |
2005.09.03 14.22
So. I think I like him? :)
taha,
hahahahah
|
|
|
|
 |
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
| |
2005.08.24 07.26
this was cool
well i haddddd this cool little survey thing but it got messed up. but yea anyways-
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GABBY YOU ARE THE COOLEST THIRTEEN YEAR OLD EVER!!!! AHHHH!!! YAYYYYY! welcome to the teens girly. :)
Mood:  sleepy
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
| |
2005.08.19 14.01
I'm dissapointed that you don't care anymore.
|
|
|
|
 |
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
| |
2005.08.05 15.10
...searching for a hero....
So Crazy Fo Ya auditions are over. Thank goodness--the nerves were driving me insane. So tommorow I have to wake up early early to go in for interning at the rep...with MISS BRITTANY! yay!
Yesterday I played online all day at mi madre's office-- and saw the rent trailer but! There's no sound on these computers....:(
but at least I got to view it...looks muy bonito to me.
Then I went midnight bowling with my mom and a few people from her office- OMG SO FUN! I love jill and doug and rich and danielle and donna and chad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahahahha. :) yay love!
So then I got home at about 2 am. Went to sleep. Woke up to a really dry complexion that has been irritating me all day so far. Went to kinkos and got the c4u script bound...and now I'm back at the office...and I'm about to go to an acting lesson wit miss Ginny.
Anyways- <3 to all. love love love.
Mood: nerves...nerves...nerves
|
|
|
|
 |
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
| |
2005.07.31 09.51
omuuggguuuuusooosh...ma!
AH!! Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants comes out tommorow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GAH!....Okay you all have probably never heard me rant and rave about how much I LOVE this book.
The only downfall is that Anna waited until NOW to tell me she's in Colorado!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...We had a plan because I'm Tibby...Anna's Lena, Nicole's Bridget, Alex is Carmen, Evan is Costcos, Jace is the hot soccer coach, and Adam is a plethora of different characters including Lena's little sister and Carmen's dad. We were all gonna go together to the opening day!....and Anna is in COLORADO!!...bah. Oh well. I guess we'll either have to go as soon as anna gets back...or just have to go w/o her but that would be sad. She's our Lena.
Anyways in other news- yes dahlings...crazy for you....this thursday....be there. MAHAHAHAHA. because IIIII will!
So this past week has been interesting. a little freaky. interesting. hah. Sunday was fun- went to IOA/universal with Preston and Chelsea Lane. Aw...rock lakers rock my worlded. So do seussians. really really. rEAALLLY!!.......YOU OWE ME COOKIES....haha you know who you are ;)!! hahahaha :) good times.
warning to all seussians: do not be shocked when seeing miss gabriel hanners again...she has infact grown like a bijjilion inches. yes. yes. she has. :p i <3 gabby gabberton!!!
so anywho thats all really that i have to say for now...
mucho amore to all,
stephie
Mood:  SUPER COOL IN MY RAINBOW BOOTS
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
| |
2005.07.27 11.10
hahahahahaha
since my livejournal all the way has been two months ahead...right now the date says its my birthday. LOL. Hooray! I am officially a highschooler!! Mwahahah! Okay so lots has happened since I've updated. I live down the street from miss emily now (YAY). Yesterday- the last day of school- was full of tears and goodbyes...but if I think about it the ones i would miss the most i will definitely be keeping in touch with. So this is good. Just sad that I won't even live near them anymore...but on a lighter note tonight a bunch of rock lakers are going to see MADAGASCAR!...EXCITING!...it looks cute. So this should be fun especially with all of my RLMS loves. Then tonight I'm sleeping over at chelsea lane's house...so yay for that!...and then tommorow I will be up for hanging out with people...possibly fringing a bit. Then on Sunday its off to Universal/IOA with some more rock lakers.
I CANT FLIPPING WAIT FOR CRAZY FOR YOU. HOO......HAH. So I will see all of my BELOVED DEAR seussians plus miss rebecca on thursday!!!!!!!! AHHH! less than a week! Gabby girl...I found out the classes start at nine so I'm probably gonna be there around 8:30. So yea. OO and you are welcome to sleep over our place anytime too. :)
Anyways...dude....its summer...i CANT BELIEVE I MADE IT OUT OF ROCK LAKE!
I love you all.
Mood: excited!!!1
|
|
|
|
 |
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
| |
2005.07.08 21.09
long time no update!!
Wow so a lot has been going on since i last updated! Mostly school stuff...spending as much time with my RLMS friends as possible before the big move. This week is eigth grade week...meaning that Monday- highschool spirit day....Tuesday- crazy hat dat....Wednesday- field day....Thursday- tacky tourist day...and Friday- yearbook signing and then that night our humongous Bon Voyage dance. Monday I was decorated in my blue swishy makey noise pants, and a home-made blue and white shirt with Dr.Phillips Panthers on it as well as blue and white ribbons and gift bows in le hair and a big D and a big P on my cheeks....and to clear it up for my Nicole S. the ones on my FACE! So today i wore my flower seller hat from My Fair Lady, and then tommorow is just outdoorsy clothes, and then thursday I'm going TOTALLY OUT THERE....like woah....because of course it is a tradition!
So my grandmother is staying with me for most of this week because my mom had to go to Nashville. Anyways, I will be bored out of my mind so please call me or find some way to keep me occupied. Then Friday I am going home with Savveeee and then getting ready for the dance with her and then Miss saavedra and I will go to the questers party at friendlys and then to the dance and then we are going to crash at her place and it will be a total BLAST!...i am flipped out!
I feel like I am losing touch with some people- but hopefully we will all be able to bond mucho mas over the summer and all. So that is good. Because I am definitly looking forward to the upcoming events of the summer....
SUCH AS FREAKING CRAZY FOR YOU!!!!!!!!!
So anyways tommorow i get to eat doughnuts and miss some classes for field day.....WHOOPEE....okay I love you all very very mucho like more than the world itself and I wouldn't give any of my beautiful amazing friends for ANYTHING!!! <333 :-)
p.s. I have procclaimed myself Pope Bacon. So there. All hail the first jewish female pope named after a delicious food. Pope Bacon.
Mood:  content
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
| |
2005.06.29 15.48
okay you guys i am really irritable now i have just lost everything i wrote like twice! okay basically i don't have the time to keep writing this over and over, so i am in the library where my mom dragged me to to get me out of the house, because i have been really sick and have missed a total of three and a half days of school. anna you need to help me catch up on math maybe sunday please? i miss you guys so much, and I CANT WAIT FOR CRAZY FOR YOU. I'm starting to move into our new house this weekend!
much love,
stephanie
Mood: :-p tired
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
| |
2005.06.16 22.21
this is strange...school is not the worst thing that is troubling me.
Mood: concerned
|
|
|
|
 |
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
| |
2005.06.15 21.41
do you love me?...do you love me...do you loooove me? do you love me....now that i can dance?
mmm stephanie had a pretty sweet day. First I went skating for a little bit this morning.Then she was abducted by anna, and we went to lake brantley beach and tried to swim with no luck because it was too cold...and then we tried to walk on the edge of the dangerous thing on the dock and that was sneeky. Then we saw hot guys and they started throwing a football that accidentally hit me, and the dude was like OMG OMG IM SOOO SORRY OMG!...and im just like hahaha no worries its okay...*melts*. Then we sung frank sinatra songs on the swings...and then we decided to walk back to her place...so we did. Then we saw this big moonwalk-y type thing that was this like obstacle course with water that was in the shape of an octopus in somebody's front yard. One of those things for a birthday party. Lets just say stephanie ended up kicking off her shoes and sliding down this person's moonwalk octopus without their knowledge and then running away....quickly. Then when we got back we put on Miles' deoderant...MWAHAHAHAH....tried to hop in the pool...no luck....ate orgasmic pizza YUM....and then we decided we wanted icecream, and this is where the real adventure starts.
Okay the last time stephanie has rode on a bike....was more than two years ago. So when we decided to ride bikes with Chelsea to publix....haha wow. Well I kinda had to start learning how to manuever a bike all over again. It was SCARY. HAHA but I MADE IT! I feel so accomplished!!! I made it all the way to publix down a really steep hill...where we bought two big things of ice cream and a box of popsicles...then we tried to get people to have some popsicles. One lady took one...that made me happy. Then we rode back and I came home, put my skates on and went skating a little bit more, and I found this hidden little lake. It was beautiful...and I think it would be hard to appreciate it unless you are there. So I'm not going to take a whole lot of time to describe it here...but I wrote a lot about it in my journal, and pressed some flowers that i found near the lake and just laid in the grass for a while.
Then I came home and did homework and the rest of my night...has been like this. Just chilling. But I am happy...I feel like today was a day of peace. I felt peaceful. Twas nice.
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
| |
2005.06.15 11.31
<3
I'm not doing anything today. Call me, or post a comment. I'll check back.
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
| |
2005.06.12 22.29
the brownies were hot
Okay so Alice In Wonderland went fanastically. It was a huge mixture of happiness, excitement, nervousness, sadness, laughter, smiles, and tears. At first I was dissapointed...really dissapointed that nobody was coming (even though it was my fault because I had told people it would be bad), because the show actually ended up coming together really really great...but I got over it lol.
I mean a lot of people from school came. So that was fun....and we went to CiCi's pizza afterwards which was very hot. HOly moses I got the coolest pictures ever. So that was goodtimes.
The show ended up going really well...I felt appreciated which doesn't happen often...or ever...at my school. I think I am going to cry on the last day of school. Hard.
We stood in a circle before the show and people were taking turns saying things, and I was last...well I don't know why I started talking about it...but I ended up talking about how this was something important to me because it was basically marking the ending of our stay at rocklake...and how many of us had grown up together and were going our seperate ways soon...I don't know why this all came up...it was as if everything was just spilling out of my mouth with no thoughts attached...and before I knew it i was choking down words, and my eyes were welling up, and then Anna was holding me...I think thats what got me through the show tonight...I really didn't know if I was going to make it, but knowing that I had friends...I don't know it made me passionate about doing the best I could do...and having fun with it. I can't really explain how I felt but all I know is that it was something really new to me. I mean having friends is not new...but knowing that I had comfort and that they were with me...that well I don't know. It was just wow. I don't know if I am sad right now or happy. All I know is that I really do love my friends at Rock Lake. All of my friends. I love them more than life itself and I am going to be devestated when we go our seperate ways. I think I need them more than I realize. I think even the ones I was mad at, or that I fight with, I think I love them too...because they are my childhood. They are my life, and I really do love them.
<3
Mood: ????
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
| |
2005.06.11 20.18
bah
Sorry loves. I am feeling better now...i had the best piece of pizza i have ever had. MMmmm.
The halocaust still depresses me though. Maybe that's why I've been in a funk all day. Waking up to go look at pictures of malnourished dying innocent people in a really smelly museum isn't exactly a great way to start off your day. Meh.
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
| |
2005.06.11 17.36
sorry if i bitch at you today. i've been grumpy all day long :(
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
| |
2005.06.10 19.21
yea...you do.
they're in my stomach what are you gonna do?
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
| |
2005.06.08 15.19
back from states...:-)...
 | You scored as Hairspray. You are Hairspray! You can't stop dancing and singing and are determined to make it to the top! You don't judge people based on appearance, but on who they are on the inside. You have fallen in love and never want to fall out of it!
Hairspray | | 75% | The Lion King | | 75% | Wicked | | 60% | Rent | | 60% | Beauty and the Beast | | 55% | Avenue Q | | 35% | The Producers | | 35% | The Phantom of the Opera | | 30% | </td>
What current Broadway musical are you??
created with QuizFarm.com |
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
| |
2005.06.04 16.51
yum spaghetti
I GOT INTO DP!!! :::FROLICS ABOUT THE ROOM::: DUDE I AM SO HAPPY!!!!
OOO AND TOMMOROW MORNING IM GOING TO TAMPA TO WATCH STATES!!!! :: smiles times a GAZILLION!::
I <3 YOU ALL...DANG I AM SOOOO HAPPY RIGHT NOW. i could kiss the ceiling. "or you!" haha
|
|
|
|
 |
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
| |
2005.06.01 21.22
FREEZE FROG FACE!
Okay so...I will start with the most boring things- even though they are exciting haha-
Friday- stephanie went to busch gardens all day with her school. mmm...happy day <3
saturday- stephanie went to see Fever Pitch with her rlms kids...and ran into chris and amanda in the mall. happy day :)
today- mwahaaha....
Okay so I am doing this television show thing called "Rocket Ray" which is a comedy for kids that uses a Green Screen, puppets, and real people. Its hard to explain it because it is very strange and new- they expect it to be somewhat cult-y. Right now they are shopping the pilot to some television stations and when were done shooting they will bring it to the film festival. They are about to talk to Nickelodeon about it...that makes me really excited haha. Anyways- I play Jenny- who is the little boy Timmy's babysitter. Jenny falls in love with the main character Rocket Ray. haha...well more like "lust" but whatever. teenage crush- you get the idea.
Included in the cast of characters- Me, two little boys, a guy who dyed his hair neon blonde so that it glows in the dark to play rocket ray- and wears a bright red leather jumpsuit with fake muscles in it, a jet pack, and a ray gun, a "little person" who plays a robot...who is one of the funniest guys EVER, a REALLY hot pupeteer who works an alien puppet, a guy that is exactly like Ray Ramano who plays an FBI agent, and a bunch of others who rocked as well.
Some highlights- break TWO antique props...go me the klutz (whoops), having the hot pupeteer show me the ants (and in the hottest way tell me why they are so facisnating), watching Jacob (rocket ray) put cans of pepsi down his costume, having a room full of boys educating me about star wars, being a ditz and getting fiber glass in my arm from this ladder-after they just told me to be careful of it haha, eating A BUTT-LOAD OF FOOD, kicking things, teaching jacob how to "pound it", pretending I knew who "Yoda" is, galavanting outside the studio with jacob and sebastian (the little person robot) IN costume, dressing undressing dressing undressing dressing undressing jacob...he got hot and dehydrated SO many times...hahahaha, and....getting all of this on video tape.
Amazing...today was so hot. It was so fun. I love boys sometimes. Especially when they are total dorks and want to educate you about starwars...and the hot ones want to show you ants...and you get to dance around together in a BIG green room and pretend there are things there that aren't.
So...much...fun.
<3 stephie
Mood: pooped...but happy :-)
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
| |
2005.05.28 21.03
all i gotta do is sign it. OHHHH snap what now. :-)
|
|
|
|
 |
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
| |
2005.05.28 17.55
KansasTheRaver: sea charleston
our colored shirt animal name scheme crashed and burned....but maybe we can pull the act together by friday!! maaahoo! I can't wait to meet brandon's grandma. HAHHA.
Quotes of the day: "Anna likes to comfort Chelsea...Stephanie likes to find comfort ON chelsea." ..."There's a horse trap on your mouses neck!"...."My nose can blink....blink...blink."
Today was a funny day. I need to go get a coffee mug. Excuse me while I galavant.
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
| |
2005.05.25 22.11
ahem.
stephanie spent her night cleaning, doing laundry, picking out an outfit for rocky horror tommorow night, and oh yea...
re-arranging her pokemon card collection from fourth grade.
ooohhh you know im cool.
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
| |
2005.05.22 00.53
*claps*
today was so funny!!! I woke up an hour earlier than I had to...hah...okay so anywho- I went iceskating with my stephie asher and nicole...and then I went and got my hair done so that it looks a lot more like it did naturally during the summer...and then we picked up amanda and went to static, and then saw ice princess- where we had an amazing adventure of sucessfully lifting every arm rest of every seat in the movie theatre while waiting for the movie to start. It was quite an adventure. It was weird though because on the same day I went ice skating i went to go see ice princess haha...the movie was better than I thought it would be but the ending was really lame...and it was super predictable but there's disney for ya! I <3 harriet the spy so it was all worth it.
Anyways I should probably go sleep so I can start to try to get back to a normal sleeping schedual before school starts again....hey its like a week or something till i hear about dp!!! eeeeeeeee...im nervous haha.
OH YEAAAAA and it turns out they had to postpone rocket ray so im not doing anything tommorow or friday after all...so if anybody wants to get me out of my house- please feel free to do so. yay spring break.
Mood: pretty contended actually! :)
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
| |
2005.05.19 14.20
SPRING BREAK...WOO WOOO
Okay so no more school for a whole entire week. Me = SO FREAKING EXCITED!!!! Gah okay anywho...
Anybody want to do anything this week other than on thursday and friday????
Things I plan to do so far:
monday= sleep in (check), and go to Static
Tuesday night= sleep over with anna
Wednesday= don't know yet
Thursday and Friday= shooting Rocket Ray stuff
Saturday= Not sure yet
Sunday= easter and seeing chicago matinee
call me people so we can do something...tuesday during the day, wednesday, or saturday or whenever :)
OKAY HAVE A PEACHY SPRING BREAK ALL!
|
|
|
|
|
[ << Previous 25 ]
[ My Myspace ]
|
|
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif?v=92.1){kind=small}
iheartelphie's journal
